Locked Into 2024

Volume 58: On The Wings Of A Phoenix

Leaving 2023

Seemingly like ,

In my review mirror.

2023 :

So many

Learned lessons ;

Never forgetting

their purposes.

For 2023 ,

Was filled with

Lies 

Illusions.

With 2024

Now Approaching :

Divine's plan

Of my journey ;

Will Soon

Be emerging.

In 2024 ,

God's Bestowing :

Amazing blessings

Into my life.

Already arrived ,

Just waiting

for my taking.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For 2023 ,

Was your learned lessons completion.

In 2024 ,

You'll reap your rewards.

For Your

Locked Into 2024 ,

Get ready

For ever-changing

Divinely blessed opportunities.

Don't Count Me Out Just Yet

Volume 58: On The Wings Of A Phoenix

You think

you can destroy me ?

Seriously ?

When I fall

I just

get back up.

When you send

evil my way

I just 

return to sender.

You believe

you can

make me

lose faith ?

Isn't Possible :

I AM

A Warrior Of God.

You assumed

I am

stoppable ?

You assumed wrong :

I have

The Divine protection

Of Heaven

By my side.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

Your enemies :

Justice I bring forth.

For Your

Don't Count Me Out Just Yet ,

For wasted time

And effort ;

You spend

trying to take me out :

NEVER GOING HAPPEN !

So just give up.

Upcoming Emperor

Volume 58 : On The Wings Of A Phoenix

For he appeared

in the beginning :

Honest

Authentic.

His actions revealed

later in time ;

His true self.

Seemingly ,

Like when

A narcissist mask's

finally slips.

For Realized :

This emperor

is just an illusion :

SO NOT REAL.

Though ,

Do not lose hope.

For God's at work

Creating An Emperor

Of Divine Wealth.

So ,

Give it to God

And wait.

Faith will ALWAYS

lead you

down the positive path.

For fear

Can't even

Enter your thoughts.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

Everything happens

for a reason.

I replace

When I remove.

For Your

Upcoming Emperor ,

Will Soon :

Be visible

Over the horizon

He will arrive.

On The Wings Of A Phoenix

Volume 58: On The Wings Of A Phoenix

For down

Deep ,

In the darkness

I had fallen.

Though ,

I Give Up :

Isn't in

my vocabulary.

Faith Over Fear :

Is my dictionary.

For I smiled ,

I'm not alone.

In God's hands

holds mine.

Enclosed by angels

for safety.

Mindset :

Faith Over Fear ALWAYS.

Doubt DOESN'T exist.

As I stood up ,

I started ascending :

Rise Above.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

You're a warrior ;

Can conquer all.

I REPLIED :

On The Wings Of A Phoenix ,

As all eyes

Gazes upon me :

WATCH ME

AS I RISE!

Lies Of Love

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

Where were you?

Who was you with?

I called you....

Went to voicemail.

(SILENCE)....

Well?

Are you going to

answer my questions?

People have 

a distorted view

of love :

Some believe should be

just two people.

While....

Others think should be

three or more.

I agree with

 just the two.

People should be honest

Always tell the truth.

Because....

When the truth

finally surfaces....

AND it always does.

Then :

Trust is destroyed ;

Can't believe another word.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For lies eventually

are questioned.

For Your

Lies Of Love ,

Are not worth

breaking the trust ;

For once broken

Can NEVER be regained.

Blocked : " Burnt Bridges "

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

For life

teaches us

many lessons :

It's our responsibility

to learn

the purpose.

It's vital

to NEVER 

take a person's love

for granted :

For the 

Cost of your consequences

Of your actions :

Will be too high

for you to handle.

Always Remember :

Lies can't be unsaid.

Actions can't be undone.

Once too much

damage has occurred :

Everything changes ;

Can't NEVER again

be the way it was.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For some people

learn the lesson

after it's too late.

For Your

Blocked : " Burnt Bridges "

For seemingly ,

You can't rebuild

a solid foundation

from ashes.

He's " Allergic " To Apologies

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

Did he

EVER feel regret

for hurting you?

Lies

Betrayal

Selfish intentions.

For he

NEVER took accountability ,

For the way

he treated people.

SO arrogant

Egotistical

SO narcissistic.

Just NEVER expect

him  to admit

his faults.

Seemingly ,

Acts as if he's " perfect "

SO NOT though.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For he's

Scared to face the truth.

For Your

He's " Allergic " To Apologies ,

Seemingly ,

He would

break out in hives ,

To confess

he's EVER wrong.

Love Me BEFORE I Leave....NOT AFTER

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

Where was he

When you needed him ?

Never answered back ;

Wasn't a priority

Didn't make the list.

So he " forgot "

to remember you

was in his life ?

NO :

Was just " FORGOTTEN "

PERIOD.

And Now :

He wants to call ?

Wants to talk ?

Why now ?

After SO much

time has passed ?

Answer is NO :

He should of loved you

before you left.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

If a man

truly loves you ,

His actions

will prove it.

For Your

Love Me BEFORE I Leave.... NOT AFTER,

For then 

You've already 

Closed and locked

the door :

NEVER TO REOPEN.

Call Unanswered.... No One's Home

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

He phoned :

Only voicemail responds.

Where are you?

Seemingly,

He wonders :

Why are you M.I.A.?

Enough time

Wasted on him :

You're already

With someone else

Someone new.

His time expired ;

Forgot to rewind 

his watch.

He waited

Too long

to decide to care.

It's too late

to talk :

Communication blocked.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

That narcissistic toxic man

had to be deleted

from your life.

For Your

Call Unanswered.... No One's Home ,

You don't want

to hurt his feelings :

Though ,

He can't accept

the answer of NO.

  

The Boundary Of Silence

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

Once upon a time :

You just wanted

honest communication.

Though ,

He didn't want 

to talk to you ;

Stayed quiet.

So you walked away ,

Closing all doors of accessibility :

Locked

Blocked

Now no way in.

So since ,

He prefers

to sit muted ;

You seemingly ,

Cut the phone cord :

Contact no longer needed.

SO NOW NEVER :

Text

Call

 Leave a voicemail ;

He's too occupied

Entertaining others.

His number erased 

from existence.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For no sound

Is peaceful.

For Your

The Boundary Of Silence ,

In the stillness

Quietness ;

You two will FOREVER remain.

Heart -To - Heart Conversation Cancelled

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

For You

Wanted to talk to him.

So,

FOR YEARS :

You waited....

And waited....

And waited.... ;

For a replied text....

Until your patience

Finally ran - out.

So saying goodbye

Was the ONLY word to him

that you had left.

For You

Realized :

So much time lost

Wasted ;

On a selfish man :

TOO BUSY playing mind games.

Was SO immature

Childish

SO needs to " GROW UP. "

So IF he

EVER....

Wants to NOW respond :

No thank you

You already moved on.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

He's not worth

Your presence.

For Your

Heart - To - Heart Conversation Cancelled ,

To NEVER

be rescheduled.

Under Emotional Maintenance

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

Slow down

Breathe ;

Take a " time - out. "

A rested sleep

will reset your energy.

For readjust

Your thoughts :

Stop overthinking.

Realign your mind :

To refresh

your soul.

Don't allow

people's opinions

to trigger

your response of negativity.

Not to be taken personally.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

Never allow anyone

to " toy with your emotions. "

For Your

Under Emotional Maintenance ,

You'll be 

ready to

update your future ;

When progress completed.

Severed Connection

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries : Access And Trust Denied

By text ,

You reached out

To only be ignored.

Obviously ,

He doesn't want

to hear from you ;

OR....

Your voice

When you called.

For action

Of no response ;

Only proves

He doesn't care at all.

For no message ,

Seemingly ,

Is a message :

Of " Leave me alone! "

So walked away

Cut all ties.

For you

deserve ,

A man

that actually wants

you in his life.

Not one

Who has

erased your existence.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

A Godly man

would always

ensure you're loved.

For Your

Severed Connection ,

Don't blame yourself

For you tried.

He just wanted

a connection

with another.

 

Do Not Enter

Volume 57: Enforced Boundaries: Access And Trust Denied

The entryway

is visible ;

Though ,

The door won't open

It's locked.

Must return

to start....

Try again.

I wish you luck.

Seemingly ,

4 walls closing in

No way out :

Must stay calm

Breathe ;

Can't overreact.

For certain doors

Should never

be opened :

Releasing pain and regrets

from Pandora's Box ;

Must never

be an option.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For enter

Sometimes

Only means exit.

For Your

Do Not Enter ,

Must never allow entrance.

From Unwanted To Adored

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

With every attempted effort ,

He wouldn't

let you in :

Just pushed away

Time and time again.

A million miles apart ,

Never on

the same page :

Just an illfated connection 

Predermined for failure.

For leaving him behind

Was vital 

to saving your inner peace.

For don't regret your decision ;

He won't even notice

you have left.

Too self-centered

With his own needs.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

My blessing bestowed to you

Will never have you wondering.

For Your

From Unwanted To Adored ,

Very Soon :

You'll finally meet

The man

That will treat you 

Like the Goddess you are.

Love Isn't The Villain

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

For love's , 

Not to blame

Not the culprit.

Love Doesn't :

Cause tears

Sadness

Sleepless nights....

Only a man

that's not

right for you does.

For love

Shouldn't equal pain.

Must Refocus :

The big picture

Is what's relevant.

Only one person

Is designed for you :

Specific

All other's

not worth your effort.

Even Though ,

Regrets becomes

Intertwined into your soul ;

Realize ,

You must

Forgive yourself

For being naive ;

For lies

You were told.

Not your fault 

Information withheld.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

Don't be afraid of love.

For Your

Love Isn't The Villain ,

Must take precautions

When choosing a man :

Never trust words

Only just actions.

Timed Hourglass

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

You miss him....

THOUGH :

When waiting

Becomes too much :

" Miss "  becomes  " Missed " 

Took too long.

For You

Once Viewed

In Anticipation :

While time

Is ticking......

Ticking......

Away ;

Then Times Up :

Moved on 

With a man

That was already prepared ;

No waiting needed.

For God Speaks :

Dear child ,

Time doesn't

Stand still ;

Must take immediate action

Or miss the opportunity.

For Your

Timed Hourglass ,

His timeframe 

For a second chance ;

Seemingly ,

Expired 24 months ago.

Locked - Out Love

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

You loved him

Or at least tried.

Though ,

He always

Pushed you aside :

Felt so unloved

Unwanted.

For he

Was emotionless :

Numb

Uncaring ,

Only pain you received.

So not worth

The agony :

Must cut all ties

Erase.

Obviously ,

Him losing you

Never even 

Crossed his mind :

His actions proved ,

You meant

Nothing to him at all.

Had to move on.

For God Speaks :

Dear child ,

Don't feel guilty

For walking away ;

For his heart

Was closed - Off.

For Your

Locked - Out Love ,

I'll unlock

Another's heart

For you to enter.

From Losing Me To Me Meeting Him

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

Broken-hearted

You were left ;

He didn't

think twice

about inflicting pain :

No remorse.

Everytime You Showed Love :

He just pushed you 

Further and further away.

Until he pushed you

Too far to return

Left no trace.

In everyone he meets

He looks for you ;

No comparison though

You're too rare.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For Your

From Losing Me To Me Meeting Him ,

His arrival time ,

Is within reach 

Of New Sacred Union.

One's Loss Is Another's Gain

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

Your thoughts ,

Memories

Of him :

Was only an illusion ;

He was fake

Not real.

Your tears

Were shedded

Over a stranger :

Not the man

he appeared to be.

Seemingly ,

Like his evil twin

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.

In his 

Pride and Ego :

For losing you

Was irrelevant ;

Was always only an option.

Was easily replaceable.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

You're loved more than

you could ever imagine.

For Your

One's Loss Is Another's Gain ,

I'll bestow you

An upgraded model ,

That will appreciate

All of you

The first time.

"The Weak Are Strong" was published in this book in 2020.

"Power Through Pain" was published in this book in 2019.

"Silence Strength" was published in this book in 2016.

"Hurry Up And Wait" was published in this book in 2015.

Amnesia Activated

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

Seemingly ,

In the silence 

You're muted :

Unspoken thoughts deleted.

Too much time wasted ;

Rewinding is undoable.

For Realizing ,

The Painful Truth :

He never loved you.

Your assumption

was just clouded judgement ;

An illusion.

You Two's Story

Must Be Forgotten :

An once seemed blessing

Quickly became a devastating lesson.

For Remembering :

One-sided love

Only produces pain ;

When peace is

So desperately needed.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

Never cry over a man

that can't

even say " I am sorry. "

He meant to hurt you

Remorseless.

For Your

Amnesia Activated ,

Seemingly Immediately ,

Erase your mind

Of that man's existence.

Bittersweet Betrayal

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

For Your

Love :

Was wasted

Unneeded ;

He had already

replaced you with

the woman he truly wanted

Loved.

Your loved in vain.

For You

Trusted Him :

What a mistake you made.

Only lies you received.

Left with visions

of what could of have been ;

Just a dream.

Though ,

God Speaks :

Your intense love ;

He couldn't handle

Not meant for the weak.

Only strong - minded survive.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

His disloyalty

high consequence

was losing you.

For Your

Bittersweet Betrayal ,

One Day ,

He'll regret

his decisions

based on his selfishness ;

It's already

Much too late.

Safe-guarded Heart

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

He said :

You can trust me.

How can I ?

When all

you tell me

is lies?

Seemingly ,

A lie detector

is required

to prove the truth.

How can I now

ever feel safe 

with you ?

Afraid to now

open up. 

For uncomfortable now

In your presence

I would be.

Must not speak.

Why can't you

just be honest ?

Why lie ?

Obviously ,

You're hiding

secrets of

many hidden options ;

I am not naive.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

His years

of no response

proved you

meant nothing to him.

He never loved you.

For Your

Safe-guarded Heart ,

I'm preparing

You a man

That will always

Protect and cherish ;

What the other selfish man wouldn't.

New Love Arriving

Volume 56: Waiting Unhalted

For You've

Cried :

For Too Long....

Too much pain

So many lies told.

Left abandoned

Unloved.

You Must

Forget Him :

You've wasted

Too much time already....

Life's too short

To be put on hold.

Seemingly ,

Been "On the back burner "

Hidden

Forgotten

Replaced.

Though ,

God Speaks :

You recently met

My bestowed choosing :

United very soon in Union.

Let the unawakened

Stay unwoken.

Just focus

On being actually loved.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

For Your

New Love Arriving ,

Your heart holds

A special 

Kind of love

That's so rare.

From Heartbroken To Healed

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

From Your

Shattered Heart :

Seemingly ,

Limitless tears fell ;

Though,

Then numbness

took ahold.

Time froze still.

From His

Silence :

He abandoned you

for someone else.

Then within

that quietness ;

Peace replaced pain.

From The

Lessons Taught :

Never be

too trusting ;

Always be on guard.

And no second chances

to avoid

heartbreak twice.

Just move on.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

He never deserved

your unconditional love.

For Your

From Heartbroken To Healed ,

Very Soon :

You'll meet

Heavenly choice

Of My choosing.

From Walking Away To Open Doors

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

For Don't

Look back :

What's behind you

is irrelevant ;

Just too much regret.

Don't Forget :

Mistakes made

can't be undone ;

Just lessons learned.

Just Know :

God closes pathways

to protect us.

Some roads

should never be traveled ;

Just blocked.

Only dangerous outcomes exists ;

Stay Alert.

For Never

Blame Yourself :

Certain people

don't want to change ;

Just prefer

staying toxic.

Must remove yourself

Leave ;

All access denied.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

Endings can produce

Amazing new beginnings.

For Your

From Walking Away To Open Doors ,

For Become

Excited :

Open Doors

bestows extraordinary

new opportunities.

Embracing The Silence Of No-Contact

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

No replies

No calls ....

In his world

you're non-existent.

Seemingly ,

Were never born.

For the quietness

Brought peace

When focused on :

To release

The pain

Of one-sided love.

For You

Must Understand :

He feels no empathy

For breaking your heart.

Only his needs

are a priority ;

Not yours.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

In the stillness

You'll seek answers.

For Your

Embracing The Silence Of No-Contact ,

For Realize :

That no communication

Is a disguised blessing.

Blessings Of Regretted Love

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

For Don't

Cry :

For he

Doesn't have time

to waste on your reply.

You're just

another option ;

No one special.

So focus

On a new man

That's actually available.

For Don't

Miss Him :

For he

Replaced you

years ago.

You never

cross his mind.

So don't allow him

to cross yours.

For Don't

Keep Your Heart

To Him Open :

For he

Doesn't deserve

your love.

So search

For a new man

That appreciates you.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

For Your

Heartbreak :

Bestowed you

Silver lining blessings.

For Your

Blessings Of Regretted Love ,

Even Though ,

Your One-Sided Love 

For Him Was Regretted :

It's now time

To be another man's

Wish Fulfillment.

You Reap What You Sow

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

No reply from him....

For Years ,

To your texts ;

That's alright.

For he

Must be " too busy "

to respond.

Received only silence.

Your Wasted :

Time

Energy

Attention

And

Love ;

Doesn't come

with a return policy.

No refunds allowed.

Just too much drama.

He's too toxic.

For he

Doesn't care

that his actions

have consequences :

He's self-centered

Avoids accountability.

" Never " his fault.

Though ,

God's says ,

Dear child ,

For we all

Must take responsibility

for our actions.

For accountability

Has no exceptions.

For Your

You Reap What You Sow ,

For his

Decisions will be judged by I ;

There's no escape.

Over The Horizon You Rise

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

For Deep

In thought

you are.

Overthinking ,

Past regrets

should of paused

before taking action ;

For shame and guilt

Has taken ahold.

Though ,

You must release

these negative emotions ;

and view the lessons learned.

For each shedded tear :

You close

one door

to open another.

For better

Opportunities awaits you.

Be grateful for

Gods divine protection.

Too many tears

already wasted.

From the settled dust

of despair ;

You shall rebuild

a greater foundation.

So to achieve

your life's destiny.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

Don't allow

life's obstacles

to defeat you.

For Your

Over The Horizon You Rise ,

You'll shine brighter

than the sun.

Future New Love

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

For Your

Forgotten Past :

You moved on.

You've wasted enough time

on tainted love.

He ruined

what could of have been.

You deserved better.

Was his loss not yours.

You should of have known ;

He couldn't be trusted.

Though ,

You never thought

He would lie to you.

Lesson Learned :

Never trust twice.

Everything happens to you

For a reason :

God's plans are perfected.

For Understand :

That man 

was just

a painful life's lesson ;

To strengthen you.

For God says ,

Dear child ,

Don't allow

his rejection

to make you

feel unlovable.

For Your

Future New Love ,

Will be unconditional

Instead of lies.

Closure Not Required

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

You've been waiting....

For an explanation

An apology ;

To Speak

Say Something....

But, his voice

Stayed muted.

For he

Doesn't want

to take accountability ;

Automatically expects

your acceptance ,

No questions asked.

None of your business.

For Understand :

His pride and ego

rule his world.

He'll never

grow up ,

Never change ,

Always be immature.

Though ,

God says ,

Dear child ,

Don't expect communication ,

For he's emotionally unavailable.

For Your

Closure Not Required ,

To Leave :

You Don't

Need his fake apology ;

You Don't

Need his approval.

Forever In The Silence

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven 

For he

Has no right

to choose

to care

for you

in your absence ;

When your presence

Never meant

that much to him.

So,

IF he

truly misses you now ?

His actions proved differently.

Just didn't want

you to move on

with someone else.

So selfish

Narcissistic.

For You

Choose quietness

over his chaos drama.

For No Conversation :

No heart-to-heart

Is required.

For Don't

Pretend to care.

His lies exposed.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

For he

Doesn't deserve

to even

hear your voice.

Just lied

And took

You for granted.

For Your

Forever In The Silence,

Will be

Seemingly,

Deafening to his ears.

Forgiveness Without Reconnection

Volume 55: Purposely - Driven

For You

Don't need closure ;

In order

To move on.

No explanations

No apologies :

No more lies

Of victim mentality ;

Block all drama.

For he

Only wants your attention

To feed his pride and ego.

His "love" for you

expires after

his mission

of bad intentions

is completed.

Then he 

moves on to another.

For his

Heart is numb to love.

Don't trust him.

For he speaks

with a forked tongue.

Can't be honest.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

Always forgive

But, Never again reconnect.

For Your

Forgiveness Without Reconnection,

Releases your pain of regrets,

And protects your inner peace

And produces healing.

Reconnection is not required,

For it

Only produces more heartache.

Return Denied: Door Permanently Closed

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

For Every

Unanswered text ;

Your emotional distance

grew wider.

For Every

Tear you shedded ;

Your love started fading.

Dying like

an unwatered flower.

For he

gave you mixed signals,

So you thought he cared.

Though,

Made you

look like a fool ;

When you

realized that he wasn't single.

Have so much regret.

Trust compromised.

For Lesson Learned :

Be careful

who you trust.

Heart guarded

Walls up.

For window of opportunity

Already has expired.

For God says,

Dear child,

Sometimes signs say enter,

When are ONLY exits.

For Your

Return Denied: Door Permanently Closed,

For Now

Forever sealed.

Lies Produce Friendship Destroyed

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

You Wonder,

Does it ever

cross his mind :

What his lies 

has cost?

At what high price?

For he probably believes :

With enough time,

All will be forgotten :

Clean slate.

But, No.

Can't Never Forget

Lesson Learned :

Don't Trust Twice.

Can't risk

Another heartbreak.

He no longer

Makes you feel safe.

For Moving On

Moving Forward :

Is your ONLY option left.

For the friendship

Once thought treasured

became worthless.

Too toxic.

Playing mind games

Immature.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

New love

Awaits you

Don't be discouraged.

For Your

Lies Produce Friendship Destroyed,

Hopefully one day,

He will

Learn the value of truth.

Moved On From Wasted Love

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

You were thinking of him

with all your heart ;

Even Though,

Your texts

were always

left on read.

For he's

Obviously,

Was too occupied

Entertaining others.

Don't Regret :

Walking away

From a man ;

Who Doesn't :

Want you

Love you

To locate 

one who does.

For his actions

Proved that

He didn't care.

For he

Cared for another.

Had chosen

someone else.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

For Understand

Realize,

You deserved

So much better.

For Your

Moved On From Wasted Love,

It was his loss

And not yours.

Was your gain

Of that blessed meeting.

Regrets Of Clouded Judgement

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

I had assumed you cared ;

Though,

I texted

received no reply.

For left on read

Filled my eyes with tears.

For Assuming

Was my first mistake.

I had to accept

The painful truth :

I was just

another option to you ;

Not a priority

Easily replaceable.

Now,

Looking back

I should've knew :

I couldn't trust you.

Though,

Believed that you

Would always be truthful.

But, Remember :

God says,

Dear child,

Don't feel foolish ;

Not every man

has bad intentions.

For Your

Regrets Of Clouded Judgement,

Is just viewed

as a learning experience.

For I am preparing you ;

For Soon,

You'll finally meet

the man

that will

never be dishonest.

Blessings Of Rejection

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

He's on your mind,

You never even enter his.

You felt emotional,

He's emotionally unavailable.

You just wanted his love,

Only to be unloved instead.

You cried,

Though tears brought insight.

You were abandoned,

Though am stronger

On your own.

No validation required.

Painful memories

Teach valuable lessons.

Remember growth

Involves constant changes.

God always replaces

Your empty spaces.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

Always be grateful.

For Your

Blessings Of Rejection,

Serves a higher purpose.

Never Settle

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

You cried,

Though he pretended

to not notice.

You forgave,

Though he never

even apologized.

You prayed,

That he would change;

Though he stayed the same.

You finally walked away :

Too tired to fight

for a connection;

Seemingly,

All energy drained

like a vampire.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

Leave when taken for granted.

For Your

Never Settle,

For his bread-crumbing minimum

Don't meet your standards.

On Broken Wings Illusion

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

For Wings

Spreaded wide-open;

Strong

Confident....

Once was.

Now Seemingly,

"Not Good Enough. "

Is like your motto.

Even Though,

You already knew :

God removes people

from your life

not meant for you.

In order,

For replacements to occur.

For left alone

Was abandoned :

While he was

entertaining others;

Wasn't worth

the effort.

Though, 

God says,

Dear child,

He's too immature

to see you're rare.

For Your

On Broken Wings Illusion,

For you seemingly appear,

Like you're defeated;

When in reality,

You've evolved

Into a soaring eagle.

 

Forever Goodbye

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

After Waiting....

Years in silence

For his reply

That never came.

Thought you would never leave,

So thought wrong.

By the time,

He realized

that you were gone;

It was already too late.

No second chances.

With many options,

His pride and ego

"Ran the show. "

So selfish,

Only caring about himself.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

"He wants his cake

and eat it too:  "

Can't decide;

Won't choose

just you.

For Your

Forever Goodbye,

You're a Goddess :

Never settle

For breadcrumbs.

Expired Feelings

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

Years....

You've waited

For change

Movement.

But, Remained the same.

For he

Was too terrified

to leave

his comfort zone.

For my

Love was wasted;

Was just rejected.

Felt so unloved

Unwanted.

Moving on

was only option.

For unexpressed feelings

Have an expiration date

When taken for granted.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

For understand that

He's not meant for you.

For Your

Expired Feelings,

I'll refresh

The updated emotions

Of your man of specifics.

From Releasing To Replacing

Volume 54: Ever-changing Growth

Your wasted tears

leaves him unaffected;

He doesn't care.

You call,

Even though knowing

it won't be connected;

On do not disturb.

For You

Must,

Let him go :

He doesn't want

to be held by you.

You're not

the woman he loves;

Accept the truth.

For Remember :

When one door closes

Another opens.

What is lost

Becomes found.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

What I'll

Bestow upon you

Will be Godly perfection.

For Your

From Releasing To Replacing,

Take ahold of 

Your new love.

From Waiting To Walking Away

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Aquired

Days

Weeks

Months

Years....

You sat patiently,

For his reply;

But, Only received

Silence instead.

For he vanished

From your life;

Seemingly,

Became MIA.

Quickly forgotten

Your existence;

He accessed amnesia.

As time

ticked by,

Shedding of unlimited tears

Was just too much :

For love you felt

Began dying;

Seemingly,

Like an unwatered flower.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

For embrace

Your life of solitude.

For Your

From Waiting To Walking Away,

Do not be concerned

With tomorrow;

For I'll

Guide your steps

Into glorious matrimony.

From Miserable To Moving On

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

You're Wondering :

No texts

No calls....

What did I do wrong?

Why did you

remove me

from your life?

Was obviously,

Not a priority.

You cry

Up all night;

You wasn't

who he wanted.

Was replaceable,

So easily forgotten.

You trusted him

to always be honest.

Only to receive lies instead.

So much regret.

Forever trust broken.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

You deserve

A man that loves you.

For Your

From Miserable To Moving On,

Dry your eyes.

In due time,

You'll finally meet

Your Sacred Divine Spouse.

Wasted Time In Silence

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

For:

Days

Weeks

Months

Years 

Have passed.

For only quietness

as his response;

Seemingly,

Like you don't even exist.

For his actions reveals

That he doesn't love you:

Already been replaced

by younger options.

You're not good enough

Don't qualify.

For No noise

No sound

Just stillness;

Sadness your only company,

Feeling so unloved.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

He doesn't deserve your love.

For Your

Wasted Time In Silence,

I'll readjust

The hourglass,

Then quantum leap

Into timing

Of divine love.

From Waiting To Ship Sailed

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

With ticking clock:

No notification sound.

Seemingly,

The silence

is so loud.

For Felt Forgotten:

Not a priority

Just another option.

For trusting him

Such a regretted mistake.

Lesson Learned:

Don't trust twice.

Turned off phone....

You're moving on.

Wasted enough time

being taken for granted.

You deserve Goddess status.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

Better opportunities

Awaits you. 

For Your

From Waiting To Ship Sailed,

Seemingly,

You've already undocked,

To redock elsewhere.

Teardrops Of Tainted Love

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

For you loved him

Even when ignored.

Always holding your phone,

Waiting for his call....

that never rung.

Down Deep

You Knew:

That he didn't love you.

In denial you stayed,

For accepting the truth

Would only cause you pain.

Even Though,

You couldn't continue

this masquerade.

Loving him felt forbidden:

Should I feel ashamed?

Your tears kept hidden

from the world to see.

Pretending that you're okay;

With a fake smile

upon your face.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

You haven't

met him yet.

For Your

Teardrops Of Tainted Love,

I'll cleanse

Your eyes;

Soon he

Will materialize.

 

From Unwanted To Cherished

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

Waiting....

But, No response

He won't answer.

For he's

Occupied with

replying to others.

You don't

even enter his mind.

For Realize,

It's not your fault

He can't see your worth.

For his

Ego and pride

operates his control panel.

He denies accountability.

Blames you

for his clouded judgement.

For Remember:

Karma always

Comes calling.

By the time

He views the truth;

You'll be already

married to someone else.

Too late for love.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

You're worthy

Of a blessed love.

For Your

From Unwanted To Cherished,

Your heart

Upon opening,

To his

Longing to love.

Karma Visited

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

Your text

went unreplied....

Again.

Is he busy?

Or just ignoring you?

You had to accept

The painful truth :

He chose another.

You already knew :

That he felt

no love for you;

Emotionally unavailable

Heart chakra blocked.

One day,

He'll realize

What he lost;

After it's too late.

He'll be missing you;

You'll be gone

Moved on

with someone else.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

Don't feel unloved.

His clouded judgement

made unwise decisions.

For his

Karma Visited,

Gift of you

Left unwrapped.

Upgraded Quality Of No Return

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

For your tears

Occupied with regrets;

Seemingly,

Serves without purpose

viewing on the surface.

Even Though,

Behind the scenes

God's working

His masterpiece :

Your Kingdom Spouse

His Kingdom Wife.

Forgiven, but, NOT Forgotten :

That man

Took you for granted;

Rejected your love.

You meant

Nothing to him at all.

For God says,

Dear child,

You deserve

My chosen.

For Your 

Upgraded Quality Of No Return,

I'll erase

Your memories of sorrow;

Replaced with

A man of unconditional love.

Emerging New Love

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

For Your

Love was wasted,

So much time lost;

Was just left alone

Abandoned.

He obviously didn't love you.

You cried

Then dried your eyes;

Lesson Learned :

Be careful who you trust.

Forgive,

Though

Can't undo

Overwhelming pain endured.

For Just

Realize :

God replaces

What you lose

With improved quality.

Loss was necessary.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

You'll only

Receive My best.

For Your

Emerging New Love,

Soon to be viewed.

Forgive Though Never Forget

Volume 53: A Blessing Or Lesson Acquired

With a deep breath

One last tear you shed :

You Must

Forget him

And let him go.

Seemingly,

You Must

Quickly access amnesia

To release his memories.

Always Remember :

Lies were his truths.

Can't trust a man

that displays disloyalty.

Move Onward :

Toward better opportunities.

For Don't

Ever let him,

Re-enter your thoughts.

Replace with

Positive romantic prospects.

Only love allowed.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

I'll erase

Your memory.

Forgotten instantly.

For Your

Forgive Though Never Forget,

You Forgive :

So his toxic behaviors

Doesn't disturb

Your inner peace.

You Never Forget :

So he can't return

To break you twice.

From Pain To Peace

Volume 52: Future Foresighted

Seemingly,

Deep Down

the inner emptiness;

Feeling like

a hollow shell.

For Regrets

Seemingly,

Set on constant rewind.

Wanting to

undo mistakes;

Though,

Changing the past

Isn't an option.

Must move forward,

Past becomes a memory.

For Let

Regrets go,

Overthinking only

produces negativity.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

I'll calm

your mind.

For Your

From Pain To Peace,

Clearer your vision

to soothe your soul.

Pained Door Of Closure

Volume 52: Future Foresighted

You Can

Forgive,

Though,

Never forget

the devastating lessons learned.

For Your

Heart,

Can't withstand

round two.

He lies too much

So can't trust;

Seemingly,

He speaks

with a forked tongue.

His every word

You question :

Can a liar

tell the truth?

For Guard

Your heart,

Never allow entry

Stay Alert!

For Consequences

Of a trespasser;

Equals unrepairable damage.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

Always close

the past behind you.

For Your

Pained Door Of Closure,

Once permanently shut

Never reopen.

Last Regretted Teardrop

Volume 52: Future Foresighted

Your overwhelming 

painful memories;

Seemingly,

Set on

unstoppable repeat.

Seemingly,

Nightmarish monsters

plague your mind 

No escape.

Your heart

feels numb:

Yet,

Seemingly,

Continues breaking.

Your tears

hurt deeply;

Seemingly,

Ocean salt-filled

into your wounds.

Though,

God says,

Dear child,

I will

end your suffering.

For Your

Last Regretted Teardrop,

I'll reset

Your program;

Calm mind

Dried eyes

Only peace pursued.